Sister Wives‘ Janelle Brown is sharing some “bittersweet” recollections of her late son, Garrison.
The truth star, 55, shared a 2022 picture of Garrison, who died by suicide at age 25 in March, alongside siblings Gabriel Brown, 22, and sister Savanah Brown, 19, on an outside journey.
“My telephone serves me up recollections day-after-day,” she wrote on Instagram alongside the household picture. “Usually they’re footage with Garrison. On good days (and at the moment is an effective day!) they make [me] smile as a result of I bear in mind the occasion and that it was a enjoyable day.”
“There may be all the time a bittersweet after glow however it’s nonetheless a very good factor to see these time capsules,” she added.
Earlier this month, Janelle opened as much as PEOPLE about being blindsided by Garrison’s heartbreaking death.
“We simply had no concept that he was in that place,” Janelle shared, including that “substance abuse” likely played a role in his mind-set earlier than his dying.
The truth star defined that she and her relations had “actual conversations” about his struggles and provided “assets” to assist him push previous his habit.
“We had been all the time speaking to him, we had been loving him. All of the issues had been there,” she stated. “It actually simply was one thing he couldn’t… just like the demon he could not get on prime of the battle. He could not appear to recover from. And it simply wasn’t for lack of affection or lack of something.”
Typically, Janelle admitted she will be able to’t assist however suppose “may we’ve achieved one thing extra, however I do not know.”
“I feel that is a grief lure as a result of I feel finally all people is liable for their very own actions and their very own selections,” she continued. “We did every little thing. We actually did every little thing that we may have achieved. And sadly, generally that also is not sufficient.”
“I feel the most important factor is to keep in mind that, ‘What if I did this, may I’ve achieved this?’ That is a bizarre psychological sport we play with ourselves generally once we’re in grief.”
On March 5, Garrison — who’s the son of Janelle and her ex Kody Brown — was found dead in his dwelling in Arizona. On the time, Lieutenant Charles M. Hernandez II of the Flagstaff Police Division informed PEOPLE that officers responded to a report of a dying inside a house and confirmed that Garrison’s brother Gabriel had “found Mr. Brown deceased.”
Officers later dominated his manner of death as a suicide.
Shortly after his dying, Janelle and Kody shared a joint assertion addressing the information on their respective Instagram pages.
“Kody and I are deeply saddened to announce the lack of our stunning boy Robert Garrison Brown,” Janelle wrote in her post. “He was a brilliant spot within the lives of all who knew him. His loss will go away such a giant gap in our lives that it takes our breath away. We ask that you just please respect our privateness and be part of us in honoring his reminiscence.”
Janelle has since paid tribute to her son on a number of events, together with lately on what would’ve been Garrison’s 26th birthday. “We’re lacking you terribly at the moment. It’s laborious to consider you aren’t right here anymore,” she wrote in April. “I nonetheless really feel you close by generally. And I’m grateful we are going to see one another once more when my journey is accomplished.”
In the event you or somebody you recognize is contemplating suicide, please contact the 988 Suicide and Disaster Lifeline by dialing 988, textual content “STRENGTH” to the Disaster Textual content Line at 741741 or go to 988lifeline.org.
In the event you or somebody you recognize is fighting substance abuse, please contact the SAMHSA helpline at 1-800-662-HELP.